28 November 2012

running

This year has gone anywhere except where I might have expected. A least expected outcome is being off the bike, doing no exercise. As opportunities to ride shrivel, so does my motivation. The less fit I am, the less inclined to get off my arse.

On Sunday Nicky and I pedal down to Carnegie and back and I show her the house my good woman and I will own on 12 December. Before we get there I comment that my crutch is sore, a foreign feeling for 15 years. That’s how off the bike I’ve been.

This morning in Sydney I wake at six, do some leg raises to ward off any possibility of back spasm, do the first ten press-ups I’ve done since abandoning the gym in May. After breakfast and blogging I take a brisk 50-minute walk interspersed with maybe a dozen hundred metre bursts of running. The beachfront here at Brighton-Le-Sands is perfect for walking and running.

Although it feels good to run, I’m cautious. Last time I decide to run seriously for fitness I run too far, strain a calf. The physio says just run a hundred metres, walk a while, then run again. I’m not built to run, never was, but still it comes naturally. I think I have an economical style.

Ron McLarty’s The memory of running is one of my all-time favourite books. It tells the story of Smithy Ide, obese drunkard whose sister with schizophrenia dubs him the running boy. Much later Smithy rides a bike across America to identify the body of his long-missing sister. No one would publish the book till Stephen King heard it read on radio.

I’ve never been a running boy, obsessed. But at 15 I discover I can run long distances, at speed. I get up early, in the dark, bolt three and a half miles in pretty quick time. I push hard; I’m not jogging. I run like the wind.

I’ll never run like the wind again, but I want to run, naturally, not as though I’m trying to catch up to the belly attached to me that’s dragging me along, or down. I want to feel light on my feet. Perhaps it’s a dream, a memory of running, real running.

My mother loved running as a girl, won the cup as best sprinter at Preston Girls High School. She says she knew she was old when she could no longer run. She must have run in secret because I never saw her run, ever.

I want to be seen running.

Rock on. 

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